I wrote a letter tonight to someone that will never receive it. He was someone that brought me so much joy in the small amount of time that I knew him that it killed me to think that I'd never get to see his smile again. It's been four months (yesterday). To think about the loss of someone that was once so close to me is one of the hardest things I've ever done. The tears flowed from my eyes uncontrollably. It breaks my heart that I never got a chance to fulfill my promises to him. I still think about him daily and wonder what went wrong.

I hope that one day we'll be able to sing a song together, love. We'll write it together, you and me. Jam sesh, just us sexy texties. You built some beautiful memories for me and for that I'm forever grateful. I will never, ever forget you. You were a bright light in a dark world.

I love you, Michael J. Swanson. Rest, dear. You'll be forever missed.